Haha something funny happened - I just remembered I like fashion and stuff. That's cool.
 
I always come back to polyvore after months and months. Hm.
 
I'm going to make it a goal to obtain this outfit and wear it every day for a while.
 
How's everyone?

I love this time of year. Autumn always makes me feel all witchy, like I just want to use my old ouija board, or go sit in the graveyard and draw creepy little sketches.
 
Also, I think witchcraft is a seriously beautiful art, and I'm going to test it out.
 
I freakin' love that Halloween feeling.
 
In other news, I've just said something dumb to someone I care about. Dumb enough to remind me that I'll always be an awkward little fuck. Sucks to suck.

My boyfriend/friend thing, whatever he is...some dude that I really love, told me about how Joe Strummer said that he used to hate hippies, until he figured that punks and hippies are exactly the same.
 
It's kind of stuck with me. I think I get what he means, just that the two subcultures arose out of a rebellious desire for change. Their goals, if they had them, were essentially the same. I like to think the two aren't so different, because I really identify with and have a sort of love for them both.

Art school
Is fuckin' INSANE
I love it
Mostly.
People here are amazing.
It's just odd, because back in your little suburban town you could have been so strange and unique...
And then plop yourself in the middle of a thriving artistic community...and you're just like everyone else. Now I have to find new ways to stand out.
What an adventure.

I've become pretty obsessed with green hair. I'm dying mine soon. I just need to decide whether to dilute it so it'll be lighter or not...and whether I want to dye my whole head or just dip dye the bottom half. I think I'll start with just the bottom, and dilute it a little bit.
 
I can't believe how soon art school starts. I'm so, so excited, but I can definitely wait. This summer is the best one of my entire life. High school is over, and I feel so free. My days are spent doing beautifully pointless things, creating art, writing, sleeping...and my nights are spent on the beach or in a basement with my boyfriend and a strange movie or two. He's the main person I'm dreading leaving behind. I hope this isn't too much information for anyone, but I lost my virginity to him, and now the attachment is even stronger and the goodbye even more ominous...I'm trying not to think of that now, though. I just want to soak up all the time I have with him.
 
So my life is about eighty percent bliss, twenty percent impending depression and excitement.
 
Anyway, anyone else going to college or art school soon too? Any tough goodbyes?

For an Alice in Wonderland contest...
I've missed doing contests. This is rather fun.
 
So I'm eighteen! It was a bit of a shock, but I feel okay about it. Thanks to everyone who helped me to come to terms with everything, both on polyvore and elsewhere.

I'm turning 18 tomorrow. That can't even be real. I'm so upset that I won't be a kid anymore, and yet so happy that I'll be free.
I can get my first professional tattoo soon. That'll be amazing. I'm getting a sideways crescent moon, so that it's in a sort of "U" shape...and in it, or above it, or around it somehow (I'll figure it out) will be a lovely deer. And it will all represent Artemis, the goddess of wild things, and it'll be beautiful. Shit. This is very exciting.
 
That's the only reason I want to turn eighteen though. I feel like 17 is the perfect age, and I hate the idea of being entirely adult...even if I will still be a teenager. It's terrifying.

For a "Surreality Bites" contest. What a lovely group that is. Go check them out.
 
So, I'm going to selfishly vent the recently spectacular events of my life.
I went to a Deer Tick concert last night.
It was one of the best days of my life.
A few friends and I were front and center in an outdoor venue, with these ominous storm clouds overhead that somehow never rained on us. During the moshing, I got my face crushed between the metal barrier and the body of a crowd-surfer. I couldn't breathe, and it gave me a bruise on my jaw, but it was amazing. Absolutely worth it.
Deer Tick is wild live. They drink the whole time, and smoke up in between songs. John McCauley, the ever-insane lead singer, blew a kiss at my friend and I before they started playing...then, he and I basically had a staring contest during this one song...at the end of which he winked at me. I can now die happy. Also, someone threw a cup at his head. Instead of freaking out, he grinned and made a funny face at them, then drank the last few drops of beer out of the cup and daintily tossed it back to the crowd.
I wish I could be his friend.
I want to meet them. The whole fucking band. They're so cool. Man, I wish I could go back and relive the whole evening, doing only a few little things differently.
 
Anyway.
Anything exciting going on in your lives?! Tell me!

I'm not sure where that title came from.
My brain farted it out, and I kind of liked it.
 
I can't believe I'm graduating high school in a few days.
I have to leave my underclassmen friends behind...including the freshman guy that I really like. (I don't care if it's weird, he's awesome.)
I went to prom with him...because why the fuck not. It was pretty nice.
But STILL...nothing's happened, which is okay.
It just sucks.
Sort of.
I'm also very happy at the prospect of change, terrifying as it may be.
Anyway.
How are you guys?

I just won 2nd Place overall in my school's art show.
Woooooo.
Also, on a whim, I asked a girl I know to go to prom with me because she's not a senior and she wanted to go, and now I'm regretting it. I probably won't go, or I'll just go with a large group...Whatever, prom is for squares.
Anyway, how are you all?